Fall 10 times. Get up 9.

But what happens when you’re done? What happens when you fall off that horse and it continues running without you? How do you catch up? How are you supposed to feel - failure after failure after failure? How do you get over feeling like nothing will ever go your way. What if you’re tired of doing the right thing, only to have bad things happen to you? Nothing goes your way. People put you down, and all you can do is look up at the tower of confidence you only wish you had.

I’m tired of putting myself out there. I’m tired of putting effort into meaningless things with no good outcome. I feel worthless. I feel pathetic. I feel like even I would pity myself if I was a spectator watching my own feeble attempts at some sort of conquer. I’m weakened and I’ll fall soon enough. Only, when others fall, it’s a domino effect. Those people are all dependent. When I fall, there’s no one around me. No one to support me or hold me up. There’s only the force of gravity keeping me from getting back up. There’s such a dim future ahead. And everyday, I wake and I ask myself, “Why are you still trying?”

(Source: drewtrinnh)